2005 draws to a close with a sunny afternoon. The radiant sunshine and the quiet serenity around my house show that it will be a very likely peaceful and quiet transition into 2006.
Is 2005 really so peaceful? Flipping through the pages of the year, it brings back both good and bad memories. The year started off with a calamity that woke the world up from its sleep.
Tsunami generously raged its waves around several areas in the world; causing great distraught and melancholy to the many citizens who call earth their home. However, the spirit of help, compassion and love that followed soon after by many people is commendable and shows that the human race does have a good side of it after all despite all the senseless bombings and killings that takes place daily.
Many other events came and went along the year. I guess each of them in their own ways affect us and give us some experience.
On a personal level, I guess everything pretty much remains the same for me. National service is still top on my agenda of “things-to-survive-through” daily. Not that its so bad that I’m crying out aloud, but it isn’t really a nice way to start the day every morning having to face an officer which pisses you off greatly and makes u really wonder how the hell he got his 2 bars on his shoulders. To lead, overcome and excel eh?? That’s leaves much to be desired about for him.
Fret not however, all things good or bad will and must come to an end……it will be 10months before I pop the champagne of freedom as I put an end to this 2years 2 months of experience. I wouldn’t say its bad all the way; I did learn new things and experience stuff which the outside world can never give you.
Church wise, all kinda looks the same. By God’s grace, the past 2 years have seen a great increase in young boys joining the Altar Servers ministry and getting their hands full serving the parish community during the masses. It is indeed a blessing and good sign; the generation continues to move and the good work that has been put in by the various senior servers will not extinct.
However the church in its organization aspect can really leave one scratching their heads and wonder at times, what is the exact motive for people to serve the church.
Self glory? Fame? Honour? To kill time? or izzit because your other half is serving in the church? Or does one really serve in the parish because he or she has the real zeal and commitment to serve God through his people regardless of how difficult things might turn out to be?
Liturgy needs renewal, however, this process seems to be fraught with many obstacles and troubles. It seems that people just cannot get it into their heads that the church has evolved since Vatican II council in the 1960s.
The church of today is one of having the laity involved and making decisions to a certain extent. This helps relieve the burden of the religious and will enable them to better administer to the spiritual side of the people. However, we will always have a group of people who cannot get over Vatican I and insist on having the religious make every single decision and the people will just have to follow what ever is told.
Sounds very much like the army? Well….its precisely that the church is running into such daily routine that the top brass decided that it’s wrong. Church isn’t and shouldn’t be run this way. It’s a universal thing and we are all part of the body of Christ.
Well, the decisions have been made and the new Vatican II council convened and ended. New initiatives has been made and given. The laity or rather the plain joe or jane sitting in the church every Sunday has been empowered and invited to play a more active role in building this earthly church of God.
Knowing very well that we as humans are useless and powerless without divine intervention, the ever wise and loving Abba Father through the wisdom of the Holy Spirit, came upon the religious and laity. Guidelines and rules are established. What can be done and what is prohibited is made clear and precise.
Tell me then? How izzit so possible that somebody in my parish can actually say that its ok to bend the guidelines and rules? We do no have to follow them closely? The people’s heart and zeal in serving God is more important and that they should be given chances again and again if they do not perform well on the 1st time?
Now, I do not disagree with the people having zeal and the heart to serve is not important. Neither do I deny the fact that people should be given chances to serve again and again if they do not perform well the first time.
However, what cannot be accepted is that people can forsake the guidelines and rules set down by the church itself saying that its too rigid and that we as humans have to be flexible. It sounds so much like the supermarket catholics which His Grace Archbishop Nicholas Chia has mentioned about.
We choose the doctrines and parts of the faith that suits us and we believe in them. For the rest that pinches us and requires us to sacrifices our own personal values, we throw them out of the window and label it as rubbish?
Tell me then, if one really has the zeal and the heart to serve God, shouldn’t one be obedient to the guidelines and rules set down by the fore fathers of the church? Yes, we have to be flexible at times, but then….there must be a delicate balance between being flexible and keeping the faith in our hearts. You do not see Pope Benedict XVI giving in to the pressure of having the church allow contraceptives and abortion. Why? Plain simple fact, it is God who speaks not us.
Shouldn’t children listen to their parents? Its a very straight forward and simple theory. No need to argue further. As for giving people another chance, its no doubt very true. But does that mean we allow people to sing out of tune during mass? Allow people to misbehave during the sacraments? And then we say its ok…lets give them another chance? Hello!!? There is something called practice sessions and respect. Like I mentioned, if you really want to serve God, you’ll do your part and make sure you are well prepared and behave properly.
Next, the older generation encourages and want the young people to get involved in the church and expect us to be honest and open in our dealings. When we, the young people actually do it, why izzit then they react so greatly to it?
It seems just like an act; they are just saying things for the sake of saying and for the whole thing to look nice. They would just want us to be in the group and keep our mouth shut. So that when its time for glory and honour, they can tell outside people, “hey…look…we have young people involved in our parish” …..sorry people…it does not work this way. Its either you all truly invite us to get involved and respect us for who we are and our views just as we will accord you the respect that you deserve as someone elder.
Oh yah….and please don’t label us as people under the influence of satan when you get answers that you don’t desire to hear.
Those are just some thoughts that run through my mind as I reflected upon the year 2005. for those who read this entry and cannot take what was written, I have nothing much to say. I cannot offer my apologies either because those are my thoughts, my feelings. Respect people’s views are the only advice I can offer to this group of people.
So as 2005 draws to a close. I thank God for the many graces and love that he has given me and to the people around me. Let’s all pray that 2006 will be a better year with peace and joy on everyone’s mind.
Life is getting pretty lonely out there. For the coming year 2006, its my earnest hope that God will bless me with someone to journey with me and for me to love and cherish. I may not be perfect and cannot promise eternity, but there’s one thing I can promise; my whole hearted devotion and efforts to make things work…
With this I part the blogging scene for 2005. Good bye people! =D