i see u online.....my heart veri much wans to tok to u.....to make contact wif u....to connect wif u...
its like a gift given to us....its a special thread that binds me and u together....to hear u...or just to make contact wif u....will shoot me up to the highest heavens...
i just feel that there's this special bond that has been blessed to us....a road that has been paved for us to walk together...perhaps not now.. for an 'under construction' sign has been placed infront of it...
however the rational mind kicks in and presents me a wake up slap.....
"don't do anything stupid to make her uncomfortable"..."do you wana end up losing her forever?" ... "u nut case....better not say or do aniting stupid to scare her" ...
hence...in silence i wait....for her to make the move instead.....an action i've decided.....to let her lead the way and set the pace....for her to be comfortable is the crucial factor....
to love is to allow the other party to have the best...nothing but the best...no compromises..no sub standards...even if one will be at the losing end or pay a hefty price for it...how much will one lose anyway? .that loss will always be countered into a profit...as long as the person has the best...its never about yourself...but its always about the other person....
the reason is very simple...
she has saw my heart.....it has been bared out to her...there's nothing left of me to hide...everything is now under the microscope.....my feelings, hopes, wishes and intentions.....
the ball is in her court...not that i'm pushing everything her....just that...i've done what's there that needs or can be done for now....moving at her pace now is the objective...
time she needs..to clear herself of past hurts and painful experiences....to put her life back in place...to allow new seeds to germinate in her heart....so that she'll be open to feel again...open to accept another person...and to climb out of the dark bottomless pit...
a renewal process that is neccessary....to prepare her for a new experience....one that will be mind blowing on the postive side and wonderful....a journey down the road..once she's ready....the other half knows what he wans..and is ever ready....
pls take yr time...i beg u not to rush....for the last ting i wan...is for you to be hurt..by my very own actions....
its not that i'm running away... neither..its not becos i dun wana make contact u....
i just cannot lose u....i cannot..to lose u....is like taking my life away from me....
she's a person so precious and special...so perfect in my eyes....that I wouldnt dare anyhow touch it ...that i''ll consider every move that i make....every word that i will say....to ensure that not a single bit of it..will hurt her or make her feel negative....to give up my life to protect and keep it intact....is a price..i have prepared and will most willingly pay....
i stand waiting outside the door of your heart....ready and waiting for u.....never will i walk away or give up.....i will wait for u..in yr time ...to open that door of your heart and let me enter.....
i'm not superman..neither do i have any super powers....i may not be able to give u everything....but i know...for veri sure..is that...if i ever enter....i'll hold u tight...and give u a wonderful experience that u'll ever have...at the end of the day...words are just words....i'll let my actions do the talking......
these are just my thoughts.....penned down for memories....if u feel uncomfortable..pls..just ignore it...take it as just a nut case blabbering nonsense....u dun need to reply to it..nor say anting abt it....or even be troubled about it....the message given by u about us is veri clear now....i know yr stand....i'll just let time move us forward instead.....
but pls trust mi...there is a road being paved for us...there is much potential for us to move into a more deeper,special and intimate level....the thread and bond is not just given to anyhow to 2 persons....its god given...at least..tats wat i believe.....
"when u laugh...i laugh wif u.....when u r happy....i rejoice for u....but when u r sad...it pains me much..when u cry...i cry harder than u know....i rather shoulder all the bad things for u..than to have u go through it..."
its like a gift given to us....its a special thread that binds me and u together....to hear u...or just to make contact wif u....will shoot me up to the highest heavens...
i just feel that there's this special bond that has been blessed to us....a road that has been paved for us to walk together...perhaps not now.. for an 'under construction' sign has been placed infront of it...
however the rational mind kicks in and presents me a wake up slap.....
"don't do anything stupid to make her uncomfortable"..."do you wana end up losing her forever?" ... "u nut case....better not say or do aniting stupid to scare her" ...
hence...in silence i wait....for her to make the move instead.....an action i've decided.....to let her lead the way and set the pace....for her to be comfortable is the crucial factor....
to love is to allow the other party to have the best...nothing but the best...no compromises..no sub standards...even if one will be at the losing end or pay a hefty price for it...how much will one lose anyway? .that loss will always be countered into a profit...as long as the person has the best...its never about yourself...but its always about the other person....
the reason is very simple...
she has saw my heart.....it has been bared out to her...there's nothing left of me to hide...everything is now under the microscope.....my feelings, hopes, wishes and intentions.....
the ball is in her court...not that i'm pushing everything her....just that...i've done what's there that needs or can be done for now....moving at her pace now is the objective...
time she needs..to clear herself of past hurts and painful experiences....to put her life back in place...to allow new seeds to germinate in her heart....so that she'll be open to feel again...open to accept another person...and to climb out of the dark bottomless pit...
a renewal process that is neccessary....to prepare her for a new experience....one that will be mind blowing on the postive side and wonderful....a journey down the road..once she's ready....the other half knows what he wans..and is ever ready....
pls take yr time...i beg u not to rush....for the last ting i wan...is for you to be hurt..by my very own actions....
its not that i'm running away... neither..its not becos i dun wana make contact u....
i just cannot lose u....i cannot..to lose u....is like taking my life away from me....
she's a person so precious and special...so perfect in my eyes....that I wouldnt dare anyhow touch it ...that i''ll consider every move that i make....every word that i will say....to ensure that not a single bit of it..will hurt her or make her feel negative....to give up my life to protect and keep it intact....is a price..i have prepared and will most willingly pay....
i stand waiting outside the door of your heart....ready and waiting for u.....never will i walk away or give up.....i will wait for u..in yr time ...to open that door of your heart and let me enter.....
i'm not superman..neither do i have any super powers....i may not be able to give u everything....but i know...for veri sure..is that...if i ever enter....i'll hold u tight...and give u a wonderful experience that u'll ever have...at the end of the day...words are just words....i'll let my actions do the talking......
these are just my thoughts.....penned down for memories....if u feel uncomfortable..pls..just ignore it...take it as just a nut case blabbering nonsense....u dun need to reply to it..nor say anting abt it....or even be troubled about it....the message given by u about us is veri clear now....i know yr stand....i'll just let time move us forward instead.....
but pls trust mi...there is a road being paved for us...there is much potential for us to move into a more deeper,special and intimate level....the thread and bond is not just given to anyhow to 2 persons....its god given...at least..tats wat i believe.....
"when u laugh...i laugh wif u.....when u r happy....i rejoice for u....but when u r sad...it pains me much..when u cry...i cry harder than u know....i rather shoulder all the bad things for u..than to have u go through it..."
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